Humility and how I learnt it

Paul says that strength is made perfect in weakness.  How can that be?  We realise we are weak, and then we call on God and find our strength in Him.

Every time I hit on a new awareness of my weakness and inadequacies, I then make a new resolve, which I subsequently fail to keep.  Is that the way to progress in the Christian life?  Thankfully, I don’t spiritually flagellate myself any more over every flaw and problem.  Remembering that His grace is sufficient for me is very helpful.

Nonetheless, this has been a period in which I am noticing things that are just unhelpful for me.  I think I count myself as a weaker brother, rather than a stronger one.  Inappropriate TV shows, for example, that leave a bitter taste in my mouth.  I can just avoid them.  I talked through with my wife just now how if we actually used a paper TV guide, rather than flicked through the on-screen help to see what’s on, the chances are we won’t turn the TV on if it’s not worth watching.

Every minute spent reading the Bible is profitable.  A friend said the other day that she thought she had been uselessly ploughing through the book of Proverbs, but then because she had been faithful, she was able to pluck the rhema verse out for another friend who needed to hear from God.

For non-Christians, the Bible is not a letter from God to them.  Rather, we are.  You are the only letter from God that many people will ever read.  And if in your heart there is an overflow of truth, of the issues of life, then those around you are going to get it as well.

I was thinking today about the secret place.  All of us need and should be hungry for time in the secret place every day.  Recently, I’ve been moving around a little bit, when I’ve managed to get round to prayer, that is.  And sometimes praying in view of others.  How is that less helpful for my spiritual life?  Here are a couple of reasons:

1. If someone else is in the vicinity, it will affect the honesty of my prayers before God.

2. I may feel the need to adopt a fake humility before God.

3. I might even ham up the passion of my prayer, for effect.

4. I could feel uncomfortable about the posture I am adopting before God.  If I’m sitting down, I may drift off prayer altogether if someone else is around.  If I’m on my knees, it could appear to be super-spiritual.

5. Others might feel guilty because they’re not praying, which is not the point. (With me, it’s not often enough for that!)

6. Finally, on my own, I have had the most glorious times of prayer.

There is something about shutting a door, and allowing myself to start with thankfulness, or with confession, and then beginning to pour out my petitions to Him.  Very quickly, I feel a sense of the Spirit’s presence, and part of the Word or of a rhema word is quickened to me.  Before long, all my rambling thoughts and postures, my bold intercessions and my dreaming is silenced, as I realise that I am on earth, and He is in heaven.  I am broken, and crying, and still in His presence.  I am reminded that He is all-sufficient, and yet He has deigned to make me, to love me, to call me.  I go out from the secret place with my heart tenderised, my soul split open and my pride and will lowered, and the world is a different place.  The world is an opportunity for the fire and the love of God to break out.

Kendall, in this superb book ‘Did you think to pray’, says that for over thirty years he has been praying for the Queen of England.  That he has prayed for revival for as long as he can remember (and he is in his seventies).  Perhaps I will be able to say that one day.  Perhaps one day I will see the revival that I have agonised and tarried for.

Get me to the secret place Daddy.  I wanna go there every day.  Hippolytus said that Christians should pray seven times a day.  The early Christians fasted twice a week.  I know that a TV guide and modern life is not going to give me the kick that being in the presence of Almighty God is.  Grab every means of grace you can.  While there is still time.

Advertisements

About stayingfaithful

I am looking for anything that relates to life and to a fuller life. I am bored by the normal and the natural and interested in the supernatural. There must be more than this. We were put on this earth for more than a nine to five prison, as someone said a few years ago.
This entry was posted in devotion, revival and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

One Response to Humility and how I learnt it

  1. Appreciate your openness and honesty, Ben. It is something I ask God daily, no moment by moment, to help me with.
    Sometimes I hear and receive, other times my ego manages to deceive even me and I am undone, because I know there lurks within me the self-serving ‘man of flesh’, and without the monumental sacrifice and daily giving of my Father’s grace, I would still be lost completely.
    It is good to know of other brothers and sisters living in reality along the way. Thankfully, oh so thankfully, Abba meets us all at our point of need.
    Great post from Greg Valerio today – http://chasingcolumba.com/2012/03/07/leglise-est-fermee/
    Reading Ephesians 1:1-7 and thankfulness bursts out from my soul!
    Be blessed on your road today.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s